Grace Saved Me

“Grace loves me, but it’s not what I deserve, and nothing that I’ve earned, but daily, Grace saves me … I’d be lost, but for your Grace” Grace by Tasha Cobbs

When I think about all that I have encountered, experienced and endured in my life and did not completely destroy me, I can only attribute it to God’s Grace. The verse above, in Tasha Cobbs’ song is truly the best way that I can describe how I define one of God’s beautiful manifestations of His Love towards me, from the girl I was before to the woman I am consistently developing into today. During this season of forced reflection provided through the mean of quarantine by the current virus, I was able to really comprehend how gracious God has truly been, from the beginning of my life.

Towards the end of the month of June, I was reminded by the Spirit, that I was not using my platform the way it was intended to be used. I knew I was not because I consistently sensed a conviction to change the description of the purpose for this blog and frankly, it felt so forced to write some of my past blog posts.

Allow me a moment of confession: What I am supposed to do, was going to require me to share the inmost parts of me, from my past. I have been teeter-tottering around the subjects that once brought me so much shame and some still do to this day because I did not want to risk revealing who I was, being that I was the “church girl” or “goody two shoes” that everyone knew me as. Many, family and friends included, did not know that I suffered in silence with things that I knew I should not have engaged in (of course the things that I had control over) and had to endure the consequences of. Have you ever had to experience that? Then sis, you are not alone. The beautiful thing about that that brought me to the revelation I had this season, is that no matter what I did, God was still looking over me, He still had a Master Plan for me and He was STILL going to get Glory out of it. How does that feel, thinking about that? Like, NO MATTER what I did, His Grace was available and sufficient to cover those mistakes and He could still use me, with my tainted past.

2 Corinthians 12:9 – And He said unto me, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me (KJV)

When I go a day without fulfilling God’s intended purpose for my life during this season, I am reminded of this verse from Holy Water by We The Kingdom, feat. Tasha Cobbs-Leonard: “I don’t wanna abuse Your Grace, God I need it every day” and it often gets me together. There’s Grace available for those times of weakness when you just plain do not feel like doing it too. Very often, the spirit within is willing, but the flesh is too weak to execute. (Matthew 26:41) In those moments, remind yourself of how far God brought you and where He created and desires you to be.

Here are some things, amongst countless more, that I struggled with and God’s Grace covered:

Promiscuity

Lying

Molestation

Anger

Abuse of Drugs and Alcohol

Multiple suicide attempts

Sexual thoughts

Negative self-beliefs

For so long, I was the kind of person that did not believe that I could be used because of what I have done. For a Believer, that was not Christ-like thinking and that is beyond how Jesus feels about us. I know there are so many others struggling to come to terms with what they have done and even coming before a Great God and confessing these things that sometimes, we deliberately involved ourselves in, but I am living proof, that there is Grace for that. Something I hold on to from a sermon my Pastor preached was, “There is a specific measure of Grace for every person” -Pastor LaBryant Friend. Some of us need more push than others and trust me, I’ve been there and still am in certain areas of my life. He allocated an amount of Grace that covers you entire life. Don’t be so indulged in the consequences of your weakness that you do not take advantage of what has readily been available to you, even before you were created in your mother’s womb, to walk in newness in Him.

My challenge for you today is write down all of your mistakes. Face them head on. There is no change without first recognizing what needs to be changed. There was some hard digging I had to do with this one. Second, seek repentance. It says in Matthew 3:8, “Produce fruit in keeping with repentance”. Seeking repentance acknowledges that we are not a perfect people, but we serve a perfect God, who can begin perfecting us. Additionally, there is no way you can produce and continue to produce good fruit if you are living contrary to God’s will. Lastly, fill those new voids with the Word of God and what He professes about those areas. There is scripture for everything and that is one of the many things that I love about the Word of God. It speaks to all areas of your life. He is so concerned about the very details that are unsettling to you.

LIVE in this newfound Grace and don’t allow neither yourself, others or anything the enemy attempts to use, to destroy who you are and how God sees you. Every time you fall short, remind yourself, “There’s Grace for that.”

Until next time,

Peace out Gems ✌🏾

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